Dear Mr. Perfect
So a friend told me my first list to you was a little to long so I will attempt to make it smaller then a list of 20.
1. Enjoy the outdoors, while I love being home I sure love the way the sun feels on my face.
2. Be willing to cook sometimes or even clean up once in a while
3. Know you will always have my heart, but you have to care for it like it is yours.
4. Treat me with respect and I will always respect you
5. Accept my boys, I am not looking for a dad for them. They need someone to be a role model for them.
6. Respect my faith, be willing to pray with me and for us.
7. Laugh at my dumb jokes.
Thanks...see you soon!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
The Women in my life
My beautiful mother passed away when I was seven years old and so started a string of amazing women to come in and out of my life to teach me and to guide me.
Fay is my second mother, she loved me as her own. She brought me to Christ, she showed me how to be a mom, she loved me unconditionally. When I got married, she came with me to find my dress and she sat where my mother would have sat. There are not enough words for me to describe her. I absolutely love her.
Ann was my mom's best friend, she showed me how to be a single mom and survive. She would take me shopping at Christmas with her girls and her girls were like my big sisters.
Bev is a family friend that knew me before I was conceived. She was always the supportive one, the one that would just listen and then try to help.
Julie was a friend of my dad, she was a bartender. I thought she was pretty cool. She showed me how to flirt with men (still not very good at it). She taught me never to give up, to always try your best and that my dreams were achievable.
My paternal grandmother, showed me how to cook and loved me no matter what. She always seemed sad when I was growing up, I always wondered why.
There was so much love around me from so many women (good and bad)…my mother will never be replaced nor forgotten. I believe she sent so many women into my life to guide me and to love me just as she would have.
Happy Mother’s Day Mommy!
Fay is my second mother, she loved me as her own. She brought me to Christ, she showed me how to be a mom, she loved me unconditionally. When I got married, she came with me to find my dress and she sat where my mother would have sat. There are not enough words for me to describe her. I absolutely love her.
Ann was my mom's best friend, she showed me how to be a single mom and survive. She would take me shopping at Christmas with her girls and her girls were like my big sisters.
Bev is a family friend that knew me before I was conceived. She was always the supportive one, the one that would just listen and then try to help.
Julie was a friend of my dad, she was a bartender. I thought she was pretty cool. She showed me how to flirt with men (still not very good at it). She taught me never to give up, to always try your best and that my dreams were achievable.
My paternal grandmother, showed me how to cook and loved me no matter what. She always seemed sad when I was growing up, I always wondered why.
There was so much love around me from so many women (good and bad)…my mother will never be replaced nor forgotten. I believe she sent so many women into my life to guide me and to love me just as she would have.
Happy Mother’s Day Mommy!
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Dear Mr. Perfect
Dear Mr. Perfect -
I wanted to let you know what I am looking for, what I know you will be.
1. Have a job, or doing something you at least love
2. You are tall, I am only 5'2 so that won't be to hard.
3. Accept the fact I am trying to get this extra weight off. Maybe you can help!
4. Do not keep secrets from me.
5. Be honest and up front
6. Have a love for God, pray with me and for us.
7. Be accepting of the fact I have a relationship with my ex. husbands family.
8. Accept my boys, I am not looking for a Dad for them. I need someone to be a man to them, to show them how to love a women.
9. Understand that I am moody at times and there are times I just want to be left alone.
10. Either cook or be willing to help clean up.
11. Have an amazing smile, one that will melt my heart.
12. Have a wicked sense of humor. Making me laugh is a way to my heart.
13. If something is not working in the relationship, don't stray. Fight for the relationship with me.
14. Be willing to send flowers to the office or surprise me at work.
15. Love me for me...understand me and stay true with me.
16. Be willing to have knock out drag out fights but hug me when its over.
17. Listen to what I have to say and don't dismiss me.
18. Say what you mean and live life by your actions. Actions speak loudly to me.
19. Respect me and I will do the same.
20. Treat me like a princess
Thank you Mr. Perfect....hope to see you soon!
I wanted to let you know what I am looking for, what I know you will be.
1. Have a job, or doing something you at least love
2. You are tall, I am only 5'2 so that won't be to hard.
3. Accept the fact I am trying to get this extra weight off. Maybe you can help!
4. Do not keep secrets from me.
5. Be honest and up front
6. Have a love for God, pray with me and for us.
7. Be accepting of the fact I have a relationship with my ex. husbands family.
8. Accept my boys, I am not looking for a Dad for them. I need someone to be a man to them, to show them how to love a women.
9. Understand that I am moody at times and there are times I just want to be left alone.
10. Either cook or be willing to help clean up.
11. Have an amazing smile, one that will melt my heart.
12. Have a wicked sense of humor. Making me laugh is a way to my heart.
13. If something is not working in the relationship, don't stray. Fight for the relationship with me.
14. Be willing to send flowers to the office or surprise me at work.
15. Love me for me...understand me and stay true with me.
16. Be willing to have knock out drag out fights but hug me when its over.
17. Listen to what I have to say and don't dismiss me.
18. Say what you mean and live life by your actions. Actions speak loudly to me.
19. Respect me and I will do the same.
20. Treat me like a princess
Thank you Mr. Perfect....hope to see you soon!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Friends
Through Facebook, I have been able to reconnect with some friends from days past. And I am so grateful for that! I am amazed!
It has made me think about how people stay connected through the years. I tell my boys all the time friendships are like gardens, you take care of them and tend to them they will grow but if you ignore them they start to die and go away.
I have been thinking about all of the friendships that I have had over the years, grade school friends, high school friends, work friends, etc...how did I ever let them go? Or did they let me go? This has been really in my thoughts a lot lately.
I thought I was a good friend. I remember birthdays, life events and am always willing to give everything to that friend. Then why do they leave? Why do they pull away? Did I offend them? Say something wrong?
How do people go from talking everyday, seeing each other weekly go to being non existence? I know we all get busy, we move on but when there is a bond there how does it break?
I think about my Maid of Honor when I got married, we talked everyday, saw each other weekly even when I moved to San Diego we talked all the time and saw each other every few weeks. And now.....nothing! I send Christmas cards, birthday cards, anniversary cards and....nothing. Why do I try so hard when nothing comes back?
I can play that same story over and over again, and I still come back to why do people pull away?
I can admit there were some friendships that I lost because I was to wrapped up with a boyfriend/husband and for that I regret everyday.
I have tended my garden of friends and my garden seems empty, I do have some pretty amazing friends but I wonder how long to my garden is really empty?
It has made me think about how people stay connected through the years. I tell my boys all the time friendships are like gardens, you take care of them and tend to them they will grow but if you ignore them they start to die and go away.
I have been thinking about all of the friendships that I have had over the years, grade school friends, high school friends, work friends, etc...how did I ever let them go? Or did they let me go? This has been really in my thoughts a lot lately.
I thought I was a good friend. I remember birthdays, life events and am always willing to give everything to that friend. Then why do they leave? Why do they pull away? Did I offend them? Say something wrong?
How do people go from talking everyday, seeing each other weekly go to being non existence? I know we all get busy, we move on but when there is a bond there how does it break?
I think about my Maid of Honor when I got married, we talked everyday, saw each other weekly even when I moved to San Diego we talked all the time and saw each other every few weeks. And now.....nothing! I send Christmas cards, birthday cards, anniversary cards and....nothing. Why do I try so hard when nothing comes back?
I can play that same story over and over again, and I still come back to why do people pull away?
I can admit there were some friendships that I lost because I was to wrapped up with a boyfriend/husband and for that I regret everyday.
I have tended my garden of friends and my garden seems empty, I do have some pretty amazing friends but I wonder how long to my garden is really empty?
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Help me God...again
When I found out I was pregnant with my youngest, I was not ready to be pregnant again. We were not financially ready for another one, my marriage was not ready for another one. And I think because of this, he some how knew and this is why he has always treated me poorly.
As many mom's we want to give our children everything under the sun. We want to make them happy, we want to see them smile....we want them to love us.
I don't know where I have gone wrong with him. He hates me, he pushes me away. All I can do is love him.
I go without so he and has brother can have. He hates that I have no money, he hates that he has friends that get everything they want.
Dear God....I come to you a broken mom. Help me to be better for my children. Help me take care of my paycheck, help me get out of this mess. I love my children as you love us, help me to love more. Help me God.
As many mom's we want to give our children everything under the sun. We want to make them happy, we want to see them smile....we want them to love us.
I don't know where I have gone wrong with him. He hates me, he pushes me away. All I can do is love him.
I go without so he and has brother can have. He hates that I have no money, he hates that he has friends that get everything they want.
Dear God....I come to you a broken mom. Help me to be better for my children. Help me take care of my paycheck, help me get out of this mess. I love my children as you love us, help me to love more. Help me God.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
A beautiful weekend in San Diego
What a great weekend in San Diego! I know it is very cold back east and I have friends that are very cold right now. But I am so happy t be living in San Diego!
It was a great weekend! Friday was spent out with friends listening to our favorite band (Polyester Express...they are amazing!). Was able to spend time with a friend that I am happy to get to know more! Then Saturday was spent watching my youngest playing flag football with friends to celebrate his 13th birthday. I cannot believe he is 13! Today was a great church service and then some more time with my youngest. He is a pretty great kid! The last part of the great weekend was the picture above taken at Ocean Beach. My oldest loves taking pictures and I hope he continues to find the beauty in all things God has given us.
I am so blessed and sometimes I do not take the time to see all that God has given to me. I know through Him all things are possible!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
New Year!
Every year I always make resolutions, and I think I have yet to really make them work. So, I think this year is going to be the year I really do them. I need to lose about 42 pounds and I need to make and stick to a budget. I have to make them work!
The weight is something that has to come off, I am not healthy and I want to look good again. I think one some levels I have not wanted to take the weight off because I do not want men to come near me. I want someone in my life, I want someoen to share the day with. I am ready to have someone in my life.
I need to stick to a budget, I need to clean up my credit, I need to be able to take care of things on my own like a big girl. I need my dad to move out and I need to be able to stick to a buget do to so.
A really good friend always tells me at the new year....a new year and new you! So here is to a new me!
The weight is something that has to come off, I am not healthy and I want to look good again. I think one some levels I have not wanted to take the weight off because I do not want men to come near me. I want someone in my life, I want someoen to share the day with. I am ready to have someone in my life.
I need to stick to a budget, I need to clean up my credit, I need to be able to take care of things on my own like a big girl. I need my dad to move out and I need to be able to stick to a buget do to so.
A really good friend always tells me at the new year....a new year and new you! So here is to a new me!
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