Sunday, August 30, 2009

Thoughts from Vacation

The boys and I just came back from our vacation. We took a cruise to Cabo San Lucas. I needed this so bad! I needed to be away from work, soccer, home, friends and my cell phone.

Came to some conclusions while on the ship. One, I do need to lose some weight. Looking at pictures and seeing myself in the mirror, killed me. I need to lose this weight, not only for my self esteem but for my health. The other thing is I am not ok with being alone anymore. I have been telling myself that I am ok but after seeing some many people paired up made me realize that I need someone, I also had a really great picture of me taken and I was sad that I had no one to give it to.

No where to start? First is to work on the weight and then the man hunt. I need to start pushing my comfort zone, to stretch my mind, I need to pray more and step out of that zone.

I need to be happy, I need to reach down deep and find me, find my own happiness.

Time to dig in the heels, time to stretch the zone...time to get healthy.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

The Voice of Truth

Casting Crowns has a song titled "The Voice of Truth", the song has some lyrics that hit me hard everytime I hear it....

Oh,what I would do to havethe kind of faith it takes To climb out of this boat I'm in Onto the crashing waves To step out of my comfort zoneInto the realm of the unknown Where Jesus is, And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed The waves they keep on telling me time and time again"Boy, you'll never win, you'll never win."

But the Voice of truth tells me a different story the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"Out of all the voices calling out to me I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

I keep listening for the voice telling me not to be afraid, I keep listening for it to tell me I am going to be ok. I try to listen for a voice...but what I need to notice is the things around me, the people around me and what they are saying. God speaks to be all the time but I don't take the time to listen or to enjoy what he is putting in front of me.

I want to not be afraid anymore, its time for me to let the walls down, time to let love in. Yet I am so scared to step out into the unknown......

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