Confessions of a Fat Lady....part 3

This week was a rough one, car died which pretty much took all of my savings. Which then lead me to feeling a bit out of control emotionally. So I wasn't too sure how this weeks weigh in would be. Well I lost .4 pounds, still a loss so I will take it.

Something has stick with me this week from Church on Sunday.....I need to return my body to God. My body (my life) was a gift from Him and I need to care for it.

By allowing my body to get this big and so unhealthy I am not taking care of the greatest gift...Life!

It's a tough process when all you have done for the past 20 something years is care for others and not taking the time for me. I felt selfish if I went and did something for me when the boys were younger, felt like I didn't deserve time for me. I was a mom I had to be there 100% for my children not matter what.

So this coming week I have to remember to let myself have time for me and watch what I am putting in my mouth.

Confessions of a Fat Lady...part 2

Week 2 of Weight Watchers, lost one pound and I thought that I wouldn't lose anything. I over ate my points each day, I have added walking back into my daily routine. Klondike is a great reminder to get up and walk, every night from 8:00pm - 9:00pm he comes into my room and whines and will keep whining until I take him for a walk.

I need to break the bad habits I have developed over the years when it comes to food. I still see myself as weighing 100 pounds like I did in high school. I was able to eat whatever I wanted and didn't gain a ounce. I know that is not true...but sometimes a donut just is so good. I have to look at doing that as a reward /treat instead of a normal routine. I need to develop habits that are around good food not sugary junk or high in fat.

Last weekend I went to a farmers market and enjoyed looking and tasting fresh/healthy foods. I tried fresh cheeses, oranges, grapes and fresh flavored butters. Bought some great items that we have started using in the house. I made an amazing mac and cheese with fresh items that we bought. I think the Europeans have the right idea, they have smaller refrigerators which means they have to buy fresh items and use them right away. This means there is hardly any additives that can change the taste and health values.

So off to rework my menus for the next week and off to find some more farmers markets.

Confessions of a fat lady

I have been putting off starting Weight Watchers again, this morning I went and glad (love that the meeting I attended was in a Jewish Synagogue ) I did. I took a journal with me to write down ideas and things that are said during the meeting. Today I wrote this 'take control of me, my life and my health'. I need change, change from the routine that has not been working for me, change to be more healthy, and change to look better.

What I like about Weight Watchers is that I don't have to cut out the foods I love. I have to learn portions and when to say no. I need to learn what triggers my poor eating habits and what triggers my laziness.

I love food.....I love being lazy....I love a glass of wine or mimosa....I love sleeping....but I LOVE ME MORE!!! To become the women I am meant to be, I need to trust God and His wisdom and I need to trust that I can lose this weight.

Philippians 4:13 says "I can do all things through Christ who strengths me" and with Him by my side I can do it.

Apron strings have been cut....ouch!

One week ago, I left my first born a state away in a dorm room. I surprised myself and I didn't cry when we left. I felt at peace, my job was done.

I have been doing very well with not calling him, or texting him. I have left that all up to him. That has been hard, strange not knowing what he is doing or who he is with.

The apron strings have been cut, we have been slowly cutting them since his freshman year of high school and I have been resisting the final cut but I didn't have a choice when he decided on a college a 3 hour plan ride and then a 90 minute drive away.

The good thing is I have another one that I still have attached to my apron :)