Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Week 26 - WOW

This is me last Thanksgiving......

This is me this Thanksgiving...about 16 pounds lighter and I can see a difference in my face and my hips. I am so excited about this transformation that I am going through. Today I weighed in and to date I have lost a total 20.6 pounds. I would have liked to been a little more a head then I am right now but that is ok, this is a life style change not a race.

The great thing about losing this weight is I feel great, I feel like anything is dreams and wishes can come true. This is something that I have to keep telling myself....God has been telling this to me all along I just didn't want to hear it.

Half way to my goal, now just need to work on some of the dreams that I have!

Monday, December 20, 2010

Am I becoming my Father?

When I was seven years old, my Mother passed away. We were not expecting it and it came as a shock. My Mom was pretty amazing, she made dresses for me from a pattern she would make, she cooked amazing and baked pies. She made life fun, she loved my brother and I endless. My Father was not prepared for this, he never cooked or did anything around the house. Truthfully, he was cranky all the time! 

He tried and there was times he was a great Father, but what bothers me most about my Father is two things: he lives in a could of should of world where he blames others for his life circumstances and that he has no friends.

I don't think I live in a could have should have world, but I do blame others for my life. And I am really starting to wonder about the friends thing. 

I don't want to be a cranky old lady, I want to live in the moment and celebrate all that God has given me. I want to celebrate life's ups and downs with my friends and family. 

I am worried though about becoming him, I don't want my children to be distant, I want tons of friends that I support and they support me. 

God....please allow me to continue to fill my life with joy, allow me to feel the graces you have given me. Let me life in the moment and not in the past. Amen

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