For Laurie

Ok my dear sister Laurie.....this for you!

Things that I have done right today:

Loved my boys unconditionally
Worked as hard as I could to the best of my abilities
Make a yummy healthy dinner for my family
Wore clothes that matched :)

Ok....there will be more added to this as the days go on

List for today....
Spent time with the oldest
Finished one project at work
Set up my voicemail on my new phone
Went to bible study
Laughed for the first time in days

Adventures in on line dating part 6.....and final

So the match subscription has been canceled....am I sad...nah....disappointed hell yes! Sorry men that didn't respond...you are missing out on a pretty amazing women! I am leaving this need for someone in God's hands, I have to trust that He knows what he is doing with me.

So ends my non adventures in on line dating!


Oh....ps....the one person that I have been talking with from the on line site and I are still talking but yet to meet....

Adventures in on line dating part 5

So I have been doing this on line dating for two months now and I am throwing in the towel. I have done what everyone has told me to do, read all the advice and the only thing to come out of this was my self esteem was killed and I am out a $100. I think that there is something wrong with me, that my standards are too high, that I am not attractive enough.

I know that is not the truth, I am who someone is looking for. I am attractive enough for them.

I don't like the idea of chasing after a man, call me old fashion but I truly believe that if a man is interested nothing is going to stop them in getting to know you. Think that is the main reason I don't like on line dating, I don't like the idea of having to 'sell' myself.

Think in the end I need to love myself more then subjecting myself to the rejection of others.

Adventures in online dating part 4

So starts another week of this on line dating.....I have met a great guy on line but there just seems to be something (might just be me reading into things). We have a lot common and seems to have to have hit it off but we have yet to meet (that could be left over crud from Knuckle Head).

I do have to say that I have a mad crush on someone else, but I don't think the man knows I am alive...so I just lust at a distance.

I don't want to do this on line dating any more....still think there is other ways I can spend the money.

So starts another week of looking, searching for Mr. Perfect (well perfect for me)

Adventrures with On Line Dating....part 3.5

Oh and here are the other issues I have with on line dating.....

1. Men my age want young 20somethings
2. Men my age seem to lie about their true age and put up pictures of them from 20 years ago
3. Men from overseas post that they live in my area, say they are widowed and that they are already in love with me based on my pictures

I can go on and on....over it!

Adventures in On Line Dating Part 3

Well, here I am again feeling very discouraged in this whole on line dating thing. I really think this is not God's way he want me meet the one He has for me. So, I will let the month come to an end and not renew my profile.

I don't know maybe I thought it would be different, that men would actually reply to messages that if they were very interested they would let me know.

Ugh....there is so many different ways I could spend $40 a month!!

So God....what/who do you have planned for me? I really hope you have him show up soon! I have been missing having that companionship.

Adventures in On Line Dating Part 2

So continues my On Line Dating experience, so let's see where am I in this little adventure?? Well...in the same place I was last week. This week did bring the promise of someone, but as the week went on that fizzled out.

I have emailed, winked at men that I don't necessarily find physically attractive but we have somethings in common and I have not heard back from any of them.

Then there is Zoosk (an app on Facebook), so I joined that and the first guy out the gate asked if I was only interested in a physical relationship. Told him that is a key to component to a relationship and he agreed then the next message was asking when we were going to meet up to have sex. Is this the kind of men that is out there? If so, I am staying home where it is safe.

I hope and pray for the next man to come into my life, if it is God's will then he will come if not it's ok. I am happy being alone. I truly am....yes it would be nice to share life's ups and downs with. But I don't like the rejection part of all of this.

It is safer at home.